kitsu
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Kind Demon
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Post by kitsu on Aug 26, 2007 21:45:13 GMT -5
Apparently I'm going to be gone even longer because I need a job or I loose everything. Absolutely everything. I loose my home, my chance at college and everything. Aside from you guys, I've lost everything else, all of my friends here are gone, any potential boyfriends are gone. My sanity and body are on the verge of breaking and I no longer have any time for myself. No time to read , meditate or role play. I'm loosing everything I ever cared about and more. My life sucks beyond all reason and theres nothing I can do about it.
I hope I can get a job and come back to you all soon. Please forgive my absence, but it's not my fault. I can't help that life is tearing me apart beyond any kind of recovery. I was thrown to the wolves, and their eating me alive. I can't take this stress, I can't do this, but I have to. I have no way out, and no one to save me from it. I hate this. My head hurts, my heart hurts, and my eyes hurt from being cynically depressed and pretending every thing's just PEACHY all day. Can't let the employers know I'm falling apart nope, can't.
Sorry I brought all the stupid suckyness that is LIFE to all of you. But I thought you deserved to know what's taking me so long.
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Post by Katsumi on Aug 27, 2007 10:27:27 GMT -5
It's fine, Kitsu. It's happening to me in parts, too - If I don't get out and get a job (because my parents arent satisfied with A's and B's as results >.>), I'm losing a home, education etc. and now that we've all finished school so many friends are leaving too. Life is rough, but for the last sixteen years i've just been drifting along and living the moment - Time to move on and get livin', I guess. If it's any consolation, I always figured the initial plunge to be worst, getting out there and getting sorted. In a few months you'll learn to cope with it and accept it, and start working around it for personal things and free time. I hope you have time to drop in from time to time and let us know how you're doing, because I'm sure none of us here will ever forget you. Thankyou for the work and time you put into the site, and inspiration you've given us all.
Take care, we'll miss you, and will always be here for you and waiting for you to return ^^
~ Jon
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